Hey, I'm Julian. Birmingham, UK. FTM (not out).Gay. Single. Feel free to drop me an ask :)
hey hey everyone!
it’s been a while since i promoted my top surgery fundraiser. i still have piles of t-shirts ready to reward all of you for your donations and nothing would make me happier than seeing these get posted out to you.
(except perhaps getting top surgery)
i’ve already had to turn down the date i was given (tomorrow) because of insufficient funds and i really don’t want to put it off longer than absolutely necessary.
(and you will technically own a little bit of my chest so if i ever meet you you can touch it)
bilingual my ass. you’re either heterolingual or homolingual
There was this tramp in town and he asked me for money I i didnt have any so I gave him my fags and lighter and now i really regret it cus i cant get any more til summer :(
NOooooooooooooooooo my brother said he’s going to vote UKIP in the European Elections
As of March 22nd, 2012, it’s been 1 year and 11 months since my little brother, who preferred to be called Aiden, though his legal name was changed to William Aiden Rivera-Schaeff, was ever heard from. In the early hours of the morning on April 22nd, 2010, Aiden committed suicide. I, among countless others, havent been the same since that day. Aiden showed me that my life was worth living and I would not be alive if it wasnt for him. When I met Aiden at the lgbt youth group i help form in Montgomery County, Maryland, I knew he would change my life forever.
Aiden quickly developed a close bond with me. We were both not out as transsexuals at the time(I was 15 and he was 14). A few meetings at our support group me and him had a conversation that changed everything.
"Do you sometimes feel as if you were suppose to be a man? like maybe you were born wrong…." he said to me. At that moment sparks flew. I had never met someone who felt the EXACT same way as I. I told him that was exactly as I felt and we were inseparable ever since.
He was the only one besides a select few who knew this secret about me. His parents, Cathy Schaeff and Patty Rivera(who were like second parents to me), wanted their now son to be happy and did what they could to support him. I, on the otherhand, did not find that my mom and sister would accept as easily. I transitioned to Clarke to friends, but it wasnt enough. I was still so depressed and I had no self acceptance that I became extremely suicidal. Aiden, being him, noticed and told me this
"Clarke, you are my brother, and we are in this together. I lean on you and you lean on me. If you dont tell your family, your self acceptance will harm you to the point where i will lose you. I cannot and will not let that happen."
That was the moment we made a promise to eachother. Never leave the other behind. Never commit suicide. Our bond was too strong.
One thing about me, I NEVER break my promises.
The day I learned of his suicide, it broke me. At first I was angry. He was tortured day in and day out about having to go though a life long journey to become himself. He changed his name and was one testosterone injections. Then, I remembered…
He made me promise as I did to him…
The hurt took over. I forgot my anger and could think of nothing more than losing my brother.
I now intent to keep my promise to him, even if he broke his. No matter what, things will get better.
R.I.P. William Aiden Rivera-Schaeff
May 25, 1992 - April 22nd, 2010
its been 4 years since you left this world. I love you and miss you so much. So many people know your story and you live on in ever single person i see touched by you in one way or another. I love you so much. Rest in peace.
Im giving away a Mr Limpy XS or S to whoever wins my giveaway :)
You can have a maximum of two entries. The first, by subscribing to me on youtube and posting a comment saying what packer you’d like (or you can inbox me i dont mind).
The second you can get by reblogging this post. I’d like as many people to see this post as possible, so please reblog.
The giveaway ends midnight 15th May, and i’ll be choosing the winner that week :)
I will be doing more giveaways in the future, so keep your eyes peeled :)
I don’t know what a digestive biscuit is, but I really want some now.
Found on Love & Hisses
defienceneverfear this is what the digestive madness has come to.
wtf is even going on in this ad? kittens in a biscuit packet? bit unhygienic…..